Topic: Pruitt
I'm sure you get sick of my "tear-jerking" posts, but I haven't posted about Pruitt's bond with Grandpa since his birth. It's been on my mind quite a bit, it was in the hospital because, I swear, this kid has his eyes. I've been having dreams of Grandpa too and then today, the Disney Channel aired Lion King 2: Simba's Pride. Cale doesn't "do" cartoons but I left it on regardless and heard a song that got to me. It sums up everything.
He lives in you
He lives in me
He watches over
Everything we see
Into the water
Into the truth
In your reflection
He lives in you
Of course it hurts my heart that Pruitt will never know Grandpa. It still brings tears to my eyes when Cale tells me that Grandpa is in heaven.
While I was in labor my mom and I talked about it. For me, it was almost like Grandpa left this world so that Pruitt could come into it. Mom told me that she'd always heard that one spirit leaves only to be replaced with another, but reminded me that I had no control over it. If that's the way things work, then it was in God's hands and we have to accept it. And when I think about this "philosophy" if you will, I wonder, if given the choice, would I have kept Grandpa here or kept Pruitt. Not a decision that I would want so I'm grateful that God made it, but I still miss him so much. I see his picture on the screen saver and above the tv. . .his squinty eyes, his scratchy moustache and his smile and long to hear him say my name, call to "Witty" or laugh. Now I long to hear Pruitt's voice. . .I think we'll all hear Grandpa in him.
