No, I didn't forget his birthday yesterday. Numerous times I fought back tears and forced myself to smile and go about my day. I just didn't want to deal with it ya know? I also, didn't call anyone, especially my Grandma, to see how they were doing. I saw my dad at his house, we laughed and talked and watched Raymond, but I could feel it in his kiss and his hug as I left and I rushed out the door so he couldn't see me break down.
So although it's a day late, I sure didn't forget. And it was SO hard to celebrate Carly's the day before, knowing that there was an empty spot in the house.
you know how much we care,
and although we cannot see you,
we know that you are there.
I often look at pictures,
remembering you here,
and long to hug you so hard,
a warm embrace so dear.
I told Cale it was your birthday,
I swear, he understands,
as he sang a happy birthday song,
and joyfully clapped his hands.
I hope you got my birthday wish,
I sent a hug and kiss up too,
And as hard it was for all of us here,
I know it was an extra special birthday for you!
Happy birthday in heaven Grandpa. I hope you got an extra big glass of milk with your cake. . .and please tell me it wasn't dateloaf!! I love you!!!
Posted by piperdanaiok
at 5:20 PM CST
Updated: Tuesday, 18 January 2005 5:22 PM CST
